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Good morning everyone,

I thought it was time to back into my health for days journey, both the posts and the journey itself. It happens that I’m currently on a relapse moment. You know I suffer from anxiety and depression and am currently home, trying to take care of myself in order to get better. I’m being followed by a psychiatrist and a psychologist and medicated for my mental illnesses.

What you don’t know, because I wasn’t sure yet, is that I’ve been also diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder Type 2.

My doctor had been suspecting for a while but now we’ve been able to reach a final diagnoses. I will write a full post explaining what it means for me to live with this illness and what it consists of but, for now, just let me tell you that we are not crazy, don’t take our clothes off and scream in public or change our opinion in a matter of 5 seconds. Those are all myths. What it means is that we go through emotions in a different way and could alternate between periods of being well and periods of being severely depressed. These can be triggered by a specific event or not and can last between days and months.

I’m currently going through a low period, that started about a month and a half ago, when something happened to a family member. Do you remember my mentioning this? Well, it meant a point of breakdown for me and I have yet to recover from it. But I’m fine.

Thankfully, I’m one of those people who are aware of their mental issues and has no problem in seeking help and treatment. I know my body and mind very well and I knew something was off from that moment on. I can be intellectually aware that I’m going through a crisis but I can’t obviously avoid it emotionally.

I’m just telling you that because I did start this blog to talk about my mental illness and I’ve always promised to speak up about it and be open about my struggles. I’m sorry if you don’t like to read about such topics, but it is what it is.

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This being said, I’m fine. Yes, I’m going to one of my low moments but I’m getting treatment and counselling and everything will be fine soon. I’ll update you on everything else now.

I know my dates for my final exams already, that being 6th of June, 12th of June and 14th of June. It will be so much fun to have two exams on the 5th, one on the 6th and two on the 7th. Poor me. But I’ll be fine. My doctor says go for them.

I didn’t do most of the thinks I wanted to do this weekend, simply because of my increase in medication, which makes me sleepy and groggy for a few days. I’ve been through it a few times, all is well.

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I’ve realized that things run smoothly if I accept that, sometimes, I’m just too ill or tooΒ tired to do something. I’ll get to it eventually and if I don’t, well, I do enough for someone who is currently battling health issues. Just trying to give myself grace and keep positive.

This is going to be a different week, actually.

I’ve agreed to work for 6 hours (3 on Tuesday and 3 on Wednesday) as a substitute tutor in a place where my friend works as one. They need someone for those days and she isn’t available so she asked me if I could replace her and I said I would. I’ll be tutoring 9th grade Portuguese and English.

I also have 3 therapy appointments, because I haven’t gone in a long time and I need to get back to it and fill her in on my most recent diagnosis and the related events.

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Today I plan to:

  • Take out the recycling;
  • Do some gardening. I have two new plants and I need to plant a few more seeds, along with moving and transplanting some plants;
  • Do some laundry.
  • Get Betty to work on some dishes;
  • Cook dinner;
  • Fold and put away all the laundry;
  • Bathe Rosa and give her the flea medicine. Clean her ears;
  • Study for Classic Ancient History for at least 3 hours, with as many breaks as I need;
  • Drink enough water, 2 l as it is extremely hot;
  • Do my yoga;
  • Read blogs and respond to comments;
  • Get my materials ready for tutoring on Tuesday;
  • Read 30 pages of the book I’m trying to finish;

And that is it. Would you like to share your tasks for today?

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Thank you so much for coming by and you deserve an award if you’ve read the whole post, because it’s long.

Hugs and kisses.

Chey

P.S. This post is dedicated to my poor hydrangeas, that are hating and really suffering with this heat wave. Most hydrangeas that I see around the neighborhood have died because of the super hot temperatures and most of mine are holding up, so they deserve a shout out.

P.S.S. It’s so hot the pine cones are getting unglued and falling from our pine tree. It’s like a pine cone shower and I’m always afraid I’ll get one in the head and die. Rui says that he has never heard or read about anyone dyingΒ because of a pine cone incident so I guess I’m fine.

P.S.S.S All of the above are stock photos. These are my actual plants.

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