Health for days journey – June 19th (Update and back with my lists edition)

 

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Good morning everyone,

I thought it was time to back into my health for days journey, both the posts and the journey itself. It happens that I’m currently on a relapse moment. You know I suffer from anxiety and depression and am currently home, trying to take care of myself in order to get better. I’m being followed by a psychiatrist and a psychologist and medicated for my mental illnesses.

What you don’t know, because I wasn’t sure yet, is that I’ve been also diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder Type 2.

My doctor had been suspecting for a while but now we’ve been able to reach a final diagnoses. I will write a full post explaining what it means for me to live with this illness and what it consists of but, for now, just let me tell you that we are not crazy, don’t take our clothes off and scream in public or change our opinion in a matter of 5 seconds. Those are all myths. What it means is that we go through emotions in a different way and could alternate between periods of being well and periods of being severely depressed. These can be triggered by a specific event or not and can last between days and months.

I’m currently going through a low period, that started about a month and a half ago, when something happened to a family member. Do you remember my mentioning this? Well, it meant a point of breakdown for me and I have yet to recover from it. But I’m fine.

Thankfully, I’m one of those people who are aware of their mental issues and has no problem in seeking help and treatment. I know my body and mind very well and I knew something was off from that moment on. I can be intellectually aware that I’m going through a crisis but I can’t obviously avoid it emotionally.

I’m just telling you that because I did start this blog to talk about my mental illness and I’ve always promised to speak up about it and be open about my struggles. I’m sorry if you don’t like to read about such topics, but it is what it is.

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This being said, I’m fine. Yes, I’m going to one of my low moments but I’m getting treatment and counselling and everything will be fine soon. I’ll update you on everything else now.

I know my dates for my final exams already, that being 6th of June, 12th of June and 14th of June. It will be so much fun to have two exams on the 5th, one on the 6th and two on the 7th. Poor me. But I’ll be fine. My doctor says go for them.

I didn’t do most of the thinks I wanted to do this weekend, simply because of my increase in medication, which makes me sleepy and groggy for a few days. I’ve been through it a few times, all is well.

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I’ve realized that things run smoothly if I accept that, sometimes, I’m just too ill or too tired to do something. I’ll get to it eventually and if I don’t, well, I do enough for someone who is currently battling health issues. Just trying to give myself grace and keep positive.

This is going to be a different week, actually.

I’ve agreed to work for 6 hours (3 on Tuesday and 3 on Wednesday) as a substitute tutor in a place where my friend works as one. They need someone for those days and she isn’t available so she asked me if I could replace her and I said I would. I’ll be tutoring 9th grade Portuguese and English.

I also have 3 therapy appointments, because I haven’t gone in a long time and I need to get back to it and fill her in on my most recent diagnosis and the related events.

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Today I plan to:

  • Take out the recycling;
  • Do some gardening. I have two new plants and I need to plant a few more seeds, along with moving and transplanting some plants;
  • Do some laundry.
  • Get Betty to work on some dishes;
  • Cook dinner;
  • Fold and put away all the laundry;
  • Bathe Rosa and give her the flea medicine. Clean her ears;
  • Study for Classic Ancient History for at least 3 hours, with as many breaks as I need;
  • Drink enough water, 2 l as it is extremely hot;
  • Do my yoga;
  • Read blogs and respond to comments;
  • Get my materials ready for tutoring on Tuesday;
  • Read 30 pages of the book I’m trying to finish;

And that is it. Would you like to share your tasks for today?

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Thank you so much for coming by and you deserve an award if you’ve read the whole post, because it’s long.

Hugs and kisses.

Chey

P.S. This post is dedicated to my poor hydrangeas, that are hating and really suffering with this heat wave. Most hydrangeas that I see around the neighborhood have died because of the super hot temperatures and most of mine are holding up, so they deserve a shout out.

P.S.S. It’s so hot the pine cones are getting unglued and falling from our pine tree. It’s like a pine cone shower and I’m always afraid I’ll get one in the head and die. Rui says that he has never heard or read about anyone dying because of a pine cone incident so I guess I’m fine.

P.S.S.S All of the above are stock photos. These are my actual plants.

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36 thoughts on “Health for days journey – June 19th (Update and back with my lists edition)

  1. lifeofangela says:

    Back to the health for days journey 🙂
    I’m glad you’ve been diagnosed, at least now you can put a name to what your mind has been going through. I don’t know much about mental illness, and I always try to soak in information from those who are going through it, or know more about it. I think that’s the best way I can help, is become more aware 🙂
    Your poor hydrangeas though 😦
    Hopefully the heat eases us so your flowers can breathe

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  2. LivingOutLoud says:

    Hi Cheila!
    Thank you for sharing your story. It is so difficult to live with depression and anxiety. I had severe PTSD for many years and it was a rocky journey. I have noticed even lately that I still deal with anxiety at school and lately even waiting in line at the grocery store. My glasses start to fog up and I start to get so sweaty that I move my glasses to my head.
    Hang in there my dear darling friend. Even in the midst of everything you are going through you are being so incredibly strong and continuing to move forward with the right support. I am glad that you have a good support system behind you.
    Goodluck with your exams. It will feel so great when you are done!
    I also really enjoyed your hydrangea pictures ❤
    This was my 1st week of summer without classes and I moved pretty slowly and felt lazy. This week I want to start getting into a routine.
    Have a lovely week! I am sending you great big *hugs*

    ❤ Alana

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  3. 3sistersabroad says:

    Hi I’m so pleased finally that you have a name and treatment can be for the right one. My daughter my nephew and my neice all have some form of depression. Once diagnosed correctly the right medication can be prescribed. Otherwise it’s like taking a headache pill for a tummy ache. Useless. I too have anxiety and ptsd . Love ❤️ you for speaking out about it xx

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  4. Small town Rambler says:

    I love those flowers. I enjoy your health for days journey posts. reading these inspired me to post my daily lists.
    I understand what you go thru with anxiety and depression, I also deal with it. good for you that you are doing what u need to do to get better. I hope you have an awesome day! what seeds are you planting and what are your new plants?!? I also planted a lot of flowers this week and did a post on them. 🙂

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  5. Cherylene says:

    I’m glad you have a diagnosis so you can plan for the way forward. Lovely pictures. Good luck with exams. I’m especially proud of you for actively seeking answers about what you were going through. Few people are willing to find out what’s wrong with them and sometimes wait too long to before getting help. Have a great day! I’m sending a big hug. 🙂

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  6. starringpamela says:

    I always appreciate reading about what others are going through especially in regards to mental illness. Thank you for charging your story Cheila. Hopefully the right treatment will help now.
    P.S. I hope you don’t die from a pinecone. I think Rui might have a point there.

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  7. Kathy Pardell says:

    Hello Cheila. I admire your honesty with your illness and your brave attempts to navigate your way through. As you say, being aware of your needs and seeking help is critical so I’m glad that you have a plan and are following through. Stay strong and know that you are an exemplar for others who are suffering:)

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  8. Dippy-Dotty Girl says:

    I am sorry to hear about the diagnosis. I have heard about bipolar disorder including the stereotypical notions of it. It is a heartening thing to hear that you are aware of how to deal with mental illness. It is a very important thing in battling it. What I like about you is that you are practical and that should carry you through, C. All the best with your new students and studies. That is a whole lot to balance out so don’t forget to breathe and say popcorn xx P.S.: Rui seems suspiciously right about the pine cone affair.

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  9. Quirky Girl says:

    I’m sorry to hear about your recent diagnosis. Stay positive and optimistic, and just know that while there might be some ups and downs, you are strong enough to handle whatever life sends your way.

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