Hey friends!
I hope you’re having an amazing weekend? What are you up to? I would love to know!
I got home about half an hour ago. I went to the doctor this morning, then we ran some errands (we found a way to pay less for our cell phone services, so took care of that), we did some shopping and bought Rosa a huge toy that she loves. Then I went to my mother’s house to see her and to pick up my sister who was going to my uncle and grandma’s house for lunch and then home with us. After lunch we went to the city to pick Rui’s brother up, he is also staying with us until Monday.
Lunch was nice, I got to meet my uncle’s new girlfriend whose name is… Rosa. Yep. My dog and my new aunt share a name. None of them is offended.
My uncle is an amazing cook and makes perfect desserts, so we had a great bacalhau dish and some chocolate crepes with whipped cream. It was yummy! It’s difficult for me to go to that house because there are so many memories. My grandfather lived there until he did, my sister and I lived there with my grandparents for many many years, while my mother was working abroad. It’s a sad house now. And the village too. Holds too many memories. Memories of people who are no longer living, people who used to be my friends but are no longer in my life. People I would give anything to be close to again. Those things make me sad. And then… you have my grandmother. Who is there, but not really there. She’s lost, somewhere in her mind. Somewhere in here fewer and fewer memories of her life. She’s with us, but she hasn’t been with us for many years. We are with her, but it hurts so bad. There’s nothing more hurtful than to mourn the living.
So after lunch, we went and picked my brother-in-law up from his apartment in the city. Then we came home, but stopped for some groceries. Some things we needed for tonight’s dinner and for next week. We decided against pizza and we are grilling some meat instead, with fries and a salad. I bought avocados to try again, because I have only tried them once and didn’t like the taste. I know they’re really good for you so and would love to add them to my diet, so I’m gonna try again. I also bought some frozen berries, for my oatmeal. Someone suggested to try that and I thought it was an amazing idea. I bought 750 g for 2,99β¬, which I thought was cheap, since they last for a while. We also needed some basics, fruit (I got kiwis, bananas and oranges, since we have a ton of apples left), bread, milk, eggs, napkins, charcoal for the grill, and orange juice. We got some onions to plant too. Red and some other kind. We are doing a huge garden this year!!
I’m trying to limit our grocery budget. For the last two months we wrote down all of our expenses and realized were we were spending too much. Communications was one of the areas we were paying too much for, but it’s now taken care of. The other big shock was groceries. 250ish for two people. Nope, cannot be. My mother spends 300 for 3 people and they buy cookies and soda and some expensive detergents. We are spending too much! I’m in charge of limiting our grocery expenses to 150β¬ per month, including toiletries and detergents. 175β¬ is the maximum and only because my new food choices ask for some expensive things like seeds, dried fruits and whole wheat pasta and brown rice. Anyways, I will do my best to keep our food shopping at that amount!
We also bought some cute little bunnies with Easter eggs for our little cousins. We are spending Easter with Rui’s family and we always give a little present to the girls. We still need to buy things for everyone else, but I’m glad that we are done for the kids. One less thing to worry about.
So, what’s the good news?
I went to the psychiatrist this morning. Rui went in the room with me this time. I asked her if he could and she said yes, which was good because he can tell her things that I forget! I told her about my lifestyle changes, about how much better I feel and she was happy and impressed. She said that I obviously needed this but didn’t know it or was unwilling to admit it. Rui told her about the blog and how he thought it was one of the best things in my life right now. She was interested so I told her more details and how I met such amazing people, some going through the same issues. I told her how much support I would get from those people and how amazing I felt because I was writing again (I used to write many years ago, fiction at the time, and one day I just stopped, until now) and because people were interested in reading what I write. She was happy about everything I told her and told me that she could see improvement. She said that my neurons are healing because, without the work stress, they can “accept” the medication better and heal properly!! So my brain is doing better hahaha. Rui told her I was a totally different person, which made me really happy. He has been in a better mood (I know you will read this, you little shit), and I’m relieved by that, because I never wanted to burden him in any way. He seems happier and I know it’s because I’m so much better.
And that’s it guys. Those are my news, for today. I’m so sore from the cardio video I did yesterday. Those are some powerful 15 minutes. My thighs and arms are not happy…
But I am π
At least for today. Tomorrow we’ll see!
Love you, friends.
xo
Cheila
*Picture is the view from my grandmother’s house. It seemed appropriate for the post.
Yay! Glad things are looking up for you. It sounds like you’re making some really positive changes. It’s amazing how little things like eating well make you feel better. Keep it up! We’re all rooting for you π xxx
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Thank you, Danielle. You’re so sweet! It is amazing what less stress, eating well, sleeping well and exercising could do to some people. It’s a pity they don’t know that or don’t want to see it. It makes me sad that I was one of those people for so long!
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I’m so glad things are on the mend for you and your feeling better x x
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Thank you, dear friend!
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Your an inspiration honey, you have come a long way and you will achieve whatever you want if u work hard enough x x x
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Oh, that means so much. You have no idea. You are amazing and so encouraging.
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Just speaking the truth hun x x
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Fab to hear that things are gradually improving little by little as you heal and look after yourself, it’s great to hear such positive news for today! You’re doing fabulously and the blog is brilliant, so it’s good that it helps you as well as comforts and encourages your readers π xx
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Yes, my readers say they feel inspired and encouraged but you have no idea what you guys do for me. You are 100x more encouraging and inspiring and supportive and amazing and I’m so thankful for this community!
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Lovely update and I’m so pleased for you π You have a lovely blog, honest and heartfelt-very pleased to have “met” you π xx
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Oh dear, that is so sweet. I’m so thankful that I’ve met you too. You are amazing and so supportive!
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π xx
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I’m sorry I haven’t had the time to dig into your blog. I really want to do it, and will soon!
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Thank you-you’re very welcome any time π xx
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Superb
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Thank you!!
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I think I might have to do something about my diet too! Reading how it’s helping you feel better is really quite interesting! I’m pretty sure I’m giving my body so many wrong foods and it shouldn’t be a surprise that it’s not feeling all too good because of it. But I feel like I have no idea where to really start with changing things? It seems like there is so much and I am absolutely not educated on diets or anything. It’s daunting, really.
So happy to hear that your appointment with your psychiatrist went well! And that Rui is seeing the changes too! Must be such a relief to hear the things he said and that your psychiatrist can see changes too! I’m sure the next couple of weeks will help a lot with that too! To a brighter future!
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Thank you so much for reading, my dear!! I am happy, yes. I was at a point where I could see no light at the end of the tunnel. Well, I’m no expert but I do know a bit about nutrition, maybe you can look into my post where I talk about all the changes I’m making and maybe find some help there? I would be glad to answer any questions
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I’ve been keeping up with your posts about your diet changes to some degree, maybe I should take a more in depth look!
I’ll let you know if I have any more detailed questions! π
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There’s a specific one about all my diet changes in detail π
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I have nominated you for The Blue Sky tag: https://pinkfordays.wordpress.com/2017/03/26/the-blue-sky-tag-3/
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What a lovely view you have from your grandma’s house. It is bittersweet when you return to places where you have memories of growing up, isn’t it? It always leaves you wistful and wishing you could meet people from another time and age when your life was so very different. Hugs. I get that feeling every time I go back to visit my parents. I am delighted to hear about your progress in terms of banishing depression from your life π You keep up the battle and you know your friends are here with you. Cheers.
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Thank you so much, my friend!!
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You are always welcome π
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“There’s nothing more hurtful than mourning the living”, so very true. I’m happy that you’re getting something positive out of blogging and that you are doing better! The first time I liked avocados (after trying them many times) was mixed with tomatoes with some Italian dressing.
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Thank you so much!! I might try them like that!
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I have nominated you for The Blue Sky tag: https://pinkfordays.wordpress.com/2017/03/26/the-blue-sky-tag-3/
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Thanks for the nomination! I’ll definitely work on a post. I love to learn more about other bloggers through award/tags and I reckon that I’m surely not the only one.
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You’re welcome. I love getting to know you all. We talk so much and so often and know many things about each other’s lives, but sometimes we leave out the small things
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Things are looking up for you and I am certainly happy to hear this
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That’s a good view. So glad to hear that things are going well! Keep writing, dear. Hope you had a great weekend.
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You too, my friend!
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So pleased you have got back to one of your loves – writing. I throughly enjoy reading your posts.
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Thank you π
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Good post, Cheila. I am sorry to hear about your grandmother. I agree that it is harder to mourn the living than the dead. I am glad that things are starting to look up for you and that your diet/exercise plan is going well! I hope that it continues on that path!
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Thank you, Natalie!
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Wow, what a beautiful view from your grandma’s home! :O
You’re so right about how hard it is to mourn the living. I’m glad she has family that loves her and visits with her though. I’ve worked in nursing homes before where people don’t, so it warms my heart to read that even though it can be hard to see her like that, she has such a wonderful family who cares for her. β€
I'm glad everything else is going so well. It's great that you're making such progress and feeling so happy overall. π Enjoy the rest of your weekend! β€
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The problem is that she forgets how often we go there, and keeps complaining no one visits, is really sad!
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Oh, that is so sad. π¦ I’m sorry she and the rest of your family has to experience this. It’s such a hard thing to go through. Hugs! β€
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It is π¦ But such is life
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I’m glad to see you’re feeling better and things are going well for you and your family/friends! π
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Thank you, Sandra
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What a beautiful and powerful post Cheila. I really loved it! I’m so glad you’re feeling better and things are looking up for you.
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I have nominated you for The Blue Sky Tag: https://pinkfordays.wordpress.com/2017/03/26/the-blue-sky-tag-3/
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Thank you Cheila! I am so honored that you would think of me!
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Of course! You don’t need to thank me
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I’m glad things are looking up!
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Me too π
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I so agree with you on ‘Thereβs nothing more hurtful than to mourn the living’. I often dream about my deceased Grandma even now. Glad you’re feeling better.
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Thank you so much!! It’s hard but we have to manage the best we can!
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Incredible that you reply so often, its rare. While such a busy and successful blogger that is inspiring to me. I hope that in the future my blog is as successful as yours. Good articles Cheila.
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hahaha you made me laugh, I don’t see myself as a “successful blogger” at all. I’m just a girl who blogs and apparently people like me so I try my hardest and best to show them I like them back!! I love the interaction, it’s my favorite part!! Thank you for being so kind, you made my day. Good luck with your blog!! If you think I could help you in some way, please don’t hesitate to email me!
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Right, that response makes me laugh as you grow followers overnight like weeds grow in grass π I will probably take you up on the email because I have reached out to several large bloggers with no response and I find that a little off putting. Hope you had a wonderful day!
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I promise that even if I have 10 000 followers, I will always have time to talk to them. Otherwise there’s no fun or pleasure in it for me!
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