Today I finally left the house and came back to work. It’s not being an easy day. I’m scared, I miss home, I had to sleep on the sofa with my boyfriend because Rosa peed on our bed as revenge for not being allowed on the sofa, you know, usual stuff. I woke up in the morning and I almost couldn’t do it. I mean, I could wake up easily, I could get up. I guess my night pills are no longer making me totally high. But I felt I couldn’t leave the safety of my house, deal with people, be a person. My boyfriend encouraged me by saying “You can do it. You already left the bed (or the couch, because of the f***** * dog), which is the worst part. Come on, after the first day you’ll be fine.” so I got dressed (I had showered and done my hair last night), washed my face, brushed my teeth, ate the cereal that I’m addicted to (Come on, I needed encouragement), fixed my hair a little, started doing my make up, poked my eye with my mascaraa because I no longer remembered how to put my makeup on, decided I would finish in the car and we left the house. I finished my makeup in the car and spilled powder foundation all over me… Thank god I always carry baby wipes. I finally managed to finish my makeup and I was physically ready for the day. My head, that’s a different story! But I’m here, waiting for my next student to show up. I don’t feel comfortable yet, but I will be. This is me. I work. I love to work. I work more than most people. So I will work, and I will like it.
I will update you guys tonight, after my day is finished. Early, which is a victory.
Please be with me.
xo
Cheila
Pink for Days 
Courage to you!
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This is such a big day for you and so proud! I know the days where the only comfortable spot, is home. I feel that way most of the time honestly. Anxiety, you are the worst!
Sorry to hear about the dog issues! It seems we have that in common as well 😂😖. Gotta laugh sometimes or we may just cry.
Hang in there you fabulous warrior! It will get easier and I am here if you need to chat as well. We shall fight together!
Cannot wait to hear the update. Sending you all the good vibes and hugs!
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Thank you so much!! Hugs
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Oh I hate those mascara moments – it always happens when you’re in a rush or feeling stressed. I hope your day is going well now and that you can enjoy the time with the students. That will make it go faster 🙂
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Yay! Take it a step and a moment at a time and be thankful for these cherished moments!
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🙂 you will do great. I am so proud of you 🙂 I think you did so good today that, when you finally get home, you should have some more cereal as a reward 🙂 God Bless you
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hahahah I will tell that to my boyfriend. I’m a cereal junkie. I’m damaged for life.
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Hang in there. Proud of you for being strong.
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Thank you, my dear!
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You can do it! You’re doing amazing. Hugs xxx
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Thank you 🙂
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I send big fat hugs your way, Cheila!
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Thank you so much!!!
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You’re utmost welcome! 🙂
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Major congrats to you! You got this! 😀
Thank goodness you carry wipes on you so that the powder incident was such an easy fix. Very proud of you taking today head on like this. You will do wonderfully. Best of luck! ❤
On a side note, we had a particular pug when I was growing up who also did the revenge-potty thing like your cute little Rosa. Normally he didn't have accidents in the house, but my grandma was staying with us for a bit and she wouldn't let him in the guest room which was absolutely unacceptable to him. He made it a point to poop in her shoe and the one time he managed to sneak into her room he pooped right on her pillow. They can be such little monsters when they're mad, can't they? lol
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She has such a personality. It’s not the first time it happens, either. There was another time, when we wouldn’t let her have her way and she went to our room and peed in our bed. The other day she was being bad so we took her to the kitchen and closed the door, when we got there she had peed in there. She’s vindictive lol What a little bitch. Literally
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lmao! Yeah, anyone who thinks animals don’t have personalities clearly hasn’t met many animals. My parents have a pug now that will throw little temper tantrums if my dad (her favorite person ever) isn’t home on time from work. She’ll just go sit by his chair and bark and bark and bark until he gets home. She is such a brat about it, but I think it’s sweet just how much she loves him. Annoying, definitely. But still sweet. lol
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Rosa pulls clothes from the clothesline and when he get home we get a piece of clothing from the floor and ask “Rosa, what did you do?” and she goes hide under the table. I laugh so hard
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lol She’s so sassy and cute! 😛
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She is 🙂 I keep telling her that’s she’s going to have a heart attacks because she goes crazy about the birds. We have a pine tree in our garden an usually there are pigeons there and so she spends hours jumping and barking because of them.
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