First of all, and before I share my plans for this week I should give you some sort of weekend recap. Bloggers do that, I guess.
So, what happened this weekend?
Nothing much and nothing too interesting. I washed and folded a ton of laundry, which we had to take to the wash station to dry since we don’t own a dryer and it was a rainy weekend. My boyfriend washed a ton of dishes from last week and cleaned the kitchen. We cleaned some more and took care of a few things around the house and thought about changing the position of our bed but decided it wouldn’t work, so we kept it the same way. Saturday night we ate pizza for dinner and watched American Horror Story.I think we only have an episode left from the third season… now that it was finally growing on me. We also watched a movie “keeping up with the Joneses“, which was okay. I’m not a big fan of comedies. I slept a lot and after that I took naps. We did some grocery shopping and on Sunday night I cooked for the week. Boring, right?
- Put away all the laundry that I folded and iron a few things;
- Find a new psychiatrist and therapist for a second opinion and to try a different approach. I think that I should be feeling better by now and I am not, despite taking so much medication. I take anti psychotics to help with my nightmares but I have them anyway. Bad ones. I take sleeping pills but I don’t sleep that well. I sleep many hours but I never feel rested. I take something that it is supposed to help me with my energy levels and well, did I tell you about the sleepy and exhausted part? I also take mood stabilizers and antidepressants but I think that those actually help, so no problem there. My therapist… I love her but we just… talk. My psychiatrist suggested that I should try some kind of therapy that goes a little deeper and makes a bigger impact, otherwise I’m just paying to talk about my problems, something I could do with a friend. I will do some research and schedule an appointment with someone else for a second (or third) opinion.
- Sign up for a gym membership or at least decided what kind of option I want to go for. I’ve been wanting to do that for a while but lately I almost feel the need to move and to do something… sporty? I don’t know how to explain it. It is as weird as my Brussels sprouts craving from last week. Am I getting “healthy” with age? Ewww. One of this days you will find me doing a whole-30 and crossfit. Just kidding. that would never happen, right? Right??? Anyway, I want to do something and I definitely need it because 1. depression makes you gain weight; 2. depression medication makes you gain weight; 3. I sit all day; 4. I have back issues; 5. my knees hurt most days so I guess I also have knee issues; 6. It helps with depression and anxiety, they say; I love swimming and I love yoga and Pilates and anything that is kind of slow and does not require running, so that’s probably what I should sign up for. And find time for. Before my boyfriend kills me. You guys, he’s the sweetest, most amazing man in the world and keeps telling me that my health is the most important thing right now and that I should focus on trying to get better, no matter how much we have to spend or sacrifice. Love you, babe.
- Find time to take my dog to get her vaccine. Which is a huge drama. Our vet described her as a “difficult patient” because last time she broke two muzzles, bit me and my boyfriend, ripped his jeans and 4 people were needed to complete the task of giving her the shot. I’m getting nervous just thinking about it. She also needs a bath, ideally before going to the doctor. I like a clean, good smelling pup.
- Meet up with one of my besties Rita for coffee. She used to have a job that allowed her to meet me during the day when I had a break or when some student cancelled the class and I had a little time to kill. Now she has a new job (that she loves, congratulations honey!) and is only available maybe after seven, which is difficult for me because I’m rarely done before nine. But I love her and miss her so I need to do some magic and find the time!
- Answer the emails from people asking about English lessons. I don’t know if I can take anyone else so I need to check my schedule and maybe do some adjustments to see if I can fit in more people. Again, boyfriend will murder me.
- Bake a cake that actually grows!
- Cut the sugar!
- Drink more water. During the Summer I am great with my water intake (1,5 to 2 l each day) but in Winter, I forget to drink water and only drink it when I’m really thirsty or when my throat hurts from speaking for many hours while working;
- Eat a ton of fruit and veggies. This will be easy because I grocery shopped and cooked with that in mind;
- Start a book; (reading one, not writing one. I can barely handle the blog)
- Watch some of the Oscar nominees. Please! I need this.
I love getting a behind-the-scene look at people’s lives like this!
I’m no therapist but have you tried actually sleeping less to feel more rested? My ideal number of hours is seven…if I have more or less than this, I don’t feel as rested or energetic.
(((hugs))) on having to take your dog for a vaccine – that sounds rough!
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Oh, thank you so much for your comment. My problem right now is not the number of hours but the quality of sleep. If I get 6, 7 or 8, nothing changes, I just don’t feel rested. Just nightmares and constantly waking up. But that’s great advice. Thank you so much. XO
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Nightmares are so awful, I’m sorry. I wonder if lucid dreaming could help. Have you ever heard of it? It’s where you are actually aware of the fact that you’re dreaming while dreaming and you’re able to make things change to your liking because your conscious mind controls the dream. Look up Olivia Kissper lucid dreaming on YouTube if you think you might be interested. She is incredible. I was able to lucid dream right after learning from her but I haven’t practiced doing it in a long time because I now have a baby who frequently interrupts my sleep! 😛
Also, I have some anxiety, too. It can certainly be debilitating. Mine has gotten better since having my little one which makes me wonder if hormones don’t at least play a role in for me.
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I’m usually pretty much aware of the fact that I’m dreaming and I have some degree of control. My medication that should help me not to have nightmares, actually does that. It is nice to have that control, I like it sometimes. But it’s exhausting anyway. Anxiety is the worst. Many people have it and don’t like talking about it, with both anxiety and depression but since starting my blog I was like “you know what? I don’t need to be ashamed of what I have”. That’s why I talk about it so openly. I hope to be a mother someday too and I have thought about the fact that it may help me because I will “get out of my head” because I will have the most important thing in the world to take care of and that will be priority.
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That’s good! I’m glad the meds help with the dream control. Yeah, I guess nightmares are exhausting no matter what.
YES, blog about anxiety and depression!! Write about your ups and downs, treatments you’ve tried (no matter how successful/unsuccessful they are) and share your feelings. Anxiety was one of the main reasons I started blogging last May. I was really struggling and it helped me tremendously to talk it all out, with a potential audience. ^_^
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So personal- I love your blog! I made mine fairly recently, maybe you could check it out and tell me what you think? xx
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Of course I will. It’s a pleasure!!
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Thank you so much! It means a lot
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